October

October.  It's an interesting word isn't it?  Fun to say, and full of connotation.  Say it in March and it brings up a faint memory of coolness, different spices, sweaters, boots, and just a hint of excitement and hope for those die hard baseball fans.  Say it in July and it's like a tease. There's no way it could ever feel cooler or be less gross outside.  But then that calendar flips from September 30 to October 1st, and suddenly, even when the high is 90 degrees, it feels like fall.

October has always been my favorite month, in no small  part because of that thing that happens at the end of it.  No, not Halloween.  That other, much more personal thing.  Oh yeah, the day of my birth.  But this year, October is different.  It's still good, and it's still going to be fun.  But there's a sad tint to it this year.  The only thing I can hope is that I'm able to focus on the good and only indulge a little in the sad.