October has always been my favorite month, in no small part because of that thing that happens at the end of it. No, not Halloween. That other, much more personal thing. Oh yeah, the day of my birth. But this year, October is different. It's still good, and it's still going to be fun. But there's a sad tint to it this year. The only thing I can hope is that I'm able to focus on the good and only indulge a little in the sad.