Ho Hum

I should be excited.  I should be inspired.  I should be thrilled.  I should be enthusiastic.  And yet, all I am is blah.  There's never enough time in the day, there's never enough people around, there's never enough change happening.  Oh there's change happening to others all around me, but it seems as though, once again, I'm rutful.  Yes I did just make up that word, and yes I know I've talked about this time and time and time again.  You see the thing about ruts is when you go along and you do the same thing over and over again, the rut gets deeper.  And each time you realize you're in said rut, it's harder to climb out of it.  It's harder physically, emotionally and frankly financially.  Because a lot of changes, well they take time, they take effort and they take money.  These are not things that happen to be high on my list at the moment.  Even though I'm doing great on my WW, I'm doing great on my budgeting, we just started choir and we're doing showtunes (YAY!), and the funness that is my crazy wedding centered fall is beginning (not mine, two of my best friends), I just feel meh at best.  And I'm not entirely sure how to fix that.